Wednesday, May 29, 2013

What is WRONG with people these days?!?

OK… this one is all R2D2’s fault. (Yeah, it’s growing on me.)

I *should* be researching/prepping for my two interviews tomorrow. But instead, I’m reading copious amounts of “Cabin Pressure” fan fic. (Research!!! Honest.)

R2’s reaction to proofreading my Johnlock fan fic has really brought on a huge happy which is diminishing the fear of making a bad job mistake:
I will be honest I haven’t finished it, but I think you are fooling yourself. You have the enthusiasm, more than I do that’s for certain, and the chops, you just need a little refining, and maybe a little more focus. Just constructive criticism. If writing is your passion, (which from what I read it clearly is) then what the eff are you waiting for? An invitation? Nobody’s going to give you one. In this business you have to go out and take it.

The problem with reading CP fan fic is that Martin’s character is such a sad sack that it’s really hard to make him even more pathetic. However, head canon within the fandom is FULL of different versions of Martin!Whump (those two words can be combined in any order, I guess, but at the end of the day, whump is whump). I guess he needs a ridiculous amount of whump in his life to make Marlas so believable? I don’t know… I’m having the same problems with Marlas as I do with certain versions of Johnlock head canon. But even Marthur drives me up the wall.  I get that Martin needs to be rescued - from himself, from life in general - but there’s no need to take such a pathetic person and have to give him such an appalling back story, no matter who comes to rescue him.

The other thing that REALLY bothers me is Cabinlock (Sherlock/Cabin Pressure). Honestly, I can handle the thought of wincest better than I can handle thinking about Cabinlock. The idea of Martin (gingerbatch) getting it on with Sherlock (brunettebatch) is… what was the word I used earlier? Squitchy. Yeah. Squitchy times a billion infinities.

I guess since the muse gave me a great idea in the shower this morning, I’m going to start writing it… but I’m going to have to charge off in my own direction again. Sometimes, I’m a little surprised by my fellow fans, and I really didn’t think there was anything left that could surprise me…

*squee*

My interview this morning was with a company I was a little, um, squitchy over. I wasn’t sure it was going to be a good place to work because I’d heard some bad things about the amount of turnover and they don’t advertise/have a website. How am I supposed to interview with only a job description? I don’t like going in blind.

I’m happy about the interview - and I was pretty much guaranteed a second - but there’s that little voice in my head that’s saying “DANGER! WILL ROBINSON! DANGER! DANGER!” I had an idea about how badly the temp-to-perm disaster affected me, but apparently I’m doubting EVERYTHING. It’s like I’m afraid to have an offer extended to me because I’m terrified to make the wrong choice again.

The guys I spoke with were pretty detailed over WHY there was so much turnover in the accounting department. I didn’t even have to bring it up. We talked about the bad google search results, but I expected their responses based on the industry they’re in. It’s kind of like working for a restaurant - only the people they piss off talk about their experiences. This company’s industry is all about pissing people off. Seriously. Oddly enough, I’m OK with that. I know what they do. I know how it works. I’m not surprised by the amount of people they piss off. (Honestly, I’d be shocked if people were all, “OMG! I lurve them! I had the best experience! They were so gentle when they cut my fingers off!” OK. Gross exaggeration…)

There’s a lot to like about the position. Pay. Commute. People. Possibilities to grow. Dress code. Hours. A whole lot. Did I mention the salary and flexible hours? I love the idea that I’m on the low end of what they’re offering. LOW END. And that I can be in at 7 and out at 3. Who wouldn’t, right?

It’s not an international company, though. I do have an interview with one tomorrow though… also close to home.

I don’t know. I’m still waiting to hear from other companies I think I’d like to work for.

As much as I don’t want to be unemployed, I’m also not sure I’m ready to take another job.

I wish I knew how to get past my fear…