I ended up adding a RADIO RUCK to my GORUCK collection. As much as I love my GR1, it’s a little too long for me to wear comfortably for a long time. The bottom hits my tailbone weird and I can’t imagine wearing it all day loaded with bricks and a bladder. So, after talking to GORUCK’s amazing customer service people, I decided to down size to the RADIO RUCK.
I put the Challenge required four bricks in it and brought it to work. The idea was to bring it to my workout tonight. We’re planning to start with two bricks, but I wanted to see if I could fit the four in there and still carry the bag.
HOLY MOTHER OF CRAP. FOUR BRICKS ARE RIDICULOUSLY HEAVY.
I can see you all out there… “Duh, Nelson. What did you expect? You’re doing something called the GORUCK Challenge. Did you think it - even the ‘light’ version - was going to be easy?”
Well, no, but the reality of what I’m embarking upon finally hit me like a ton of bricks. Literally.
I can do this…
I’m just going to continue to question my sanity while I work towards the June 8th Challenge in Boston.
It’s been YEARS since I last saw him in person, but it didn’t feel like it.
It was energizing to hear him speak, to see the passion that I know he brings to whatever he’s doing.
And, as he does so well, he planted a seed.
I’ve been noodling on this idea for a while - not going into music - but something else. As always, I have to listen to the bipolar, to my brain, and to my heart… the bipolar is telling me something. My brain agrees. My heart is confused.
And that’s OK.
It kind of comes back - full circle - to his idea of the three words.
Today hit on all three of them:
SELF: This change, if I make it, would definitely be huge. It’d be a return to what makes me me.
FAMILY: I got to spend some time with someone I never get to see, but who I adore.
CREATE: It lit a fire under my ass to get back to doing something I used to really love.
I’m not sure what path I want to take, or where it’s going to lead, but it’s nice to know I have choices…
I haven’t felt that way in a long time.