Friday, June 26, 2009

Clarity, closure, cookies.

It’s been noticed - and has kind of become a running joke - that the theme for 2009 has become “clarity, closure, cookies.”

Yup.

I had a great time last night, got the comfort I so badly needed from my little brother, acted inappropriately with my friends (*wonk wonk*), and there was closure. I made the right choice when I decided which boy to hold on to. We’re definitely OK.  The friendship won’t be the same, of course, but everything is good. I even got a good bye hug! Totally wasn’t expecting that.  I figured I’d get a head nod or something. I even got a text message on the way home. Granted, I initiated the conversation, but I wasn’t expecting an answer… it didn’t need a reply.  My world is at peace again. I’d forgotten what that felt like. Me likey.

Unfortunately, my heart is not. Physically. I’m home AGAIN from work.  4 days of work with the sinus infection, the stress and the wonky heart pretty much do me in - I just can’t make it to the 5th day. While you think I’d enjoy the three-day weekends, being sick as a dog and sleeping all day isn’t really the way I’d choose to spend the time.  I can’t wait until I get over this.  Hopefully the cardiologist can give me some better answers today.  There’s no reason for the way my heart’s been acting and it’s starting to scare me.  I don’t mind the sinus ick, but the heart thing is pushing me over the edge.

I’m back to bed now and hoping the next few hours fly by.  I have never wanted to go to the Dr’s as badly as I want to today.