Monday, June 03, 2013

I needed a little gingerbatch


what a beautiful man… seriously.

I’ve felt ‘off’ all day.

I’ve always called it ‘sick’ when I’m dealing with people who don’t get what a deep, dark, black pit of despair real depression is… I still struggle with telling people what’s wrong with me. Hell, I struggled with telling J the truth tonight about a few things. (None of which belong here… I do keep some things private.) So, I fall back on “I don’t feel well” or “I dunno. Guess I’m just tired.”

It’s hard to look for a job when the voices in your head are telling you you’re completely worthless and that you’ll never find another job.

So imagine my surprise when I came home to this in my Facebook messages:  You are intelligent and have an awesome command of the English language.

Thank you, R2D2.

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don’t lie, eleven…


Remember a few days ago when I vented about companies deciding what my commute should be?

The first company to bring it up called me for a phone screen this morning (to my surprise). This is the same company who already asked me twice about my salary requirements and commute…

Needless to say, they called, asked those two questions, said sorry for wasting my time and ended the screen.

I guess it’s a good thing I didn’t want to work there anyway.

In the meantime, a job I applied for, that I did get a quick phone screen for, called me this morning to schedule a meeting with the CFO.


I’m still hoping to hear from everyone else I’ve met with already and I have an interview for a cost accounting job on Friday. I want to get into cost, and they’re willing to train - even with my required salary and experience level, I’m still a viable candidate.

I don’t know… this is pretty damn stressful and I’m at the end of my rope. I’m tired of being home alone all day every day.


Posted by Matty on 06/03 at 12:24 PM
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